The last year has been sort of a scorched-Earth experience for me. As an example, of the last two months that have gone by - also the time when my writing here recommenced - I've spent about 40-45 of those days at home, in bed with my computer, drowning myself in whatever media I could find. I'm not proud of this. But try as I might, I couldn't get myself to move. The closest I can come to comparing this experience is the time when I went through a bad break-up. Atleast then I had friends and a legit reason to mope. This time, no legit reason, and hence nothing to say, even to friends.
But this enforced solitude has also given me pause. It's given me time to think, time to examine what it is that I could have done differently. The truth is, I'll never know. Hindsight is stellar, but it doesn't prepare you for anything. The singular truth is that things change, whether we want them to or not. And the only thing we can do is make ourselves more damage-resistant by creating more life support systems.
On that note, I have compiled a list of resolutions that I want to keep for this year.
But this enforced solitude has also given me pause. It's given me time to think, time to examine what it is that I could have done differently. The truth is, I'll never know. Hindsight is stellar, but it doesn't prepare you for anything. The singular truth is that things change, whether we want them to or not. And the only thing we can do is make ourselves more damage-resistant by creating more life support systems.
On that note, I have compiled a list of resolutions that I want to keep for this year.
- I shall be better at how I love and what I write.
- I shall be healthier.
- I shall earn more, invest more and spend more.
- I shall dip my feet in an ocean I haven’t felt before.
- I shall not feel very sorry for myself.
- I shall finish what I start.
- I shall redo my place even if it’s a giant pain in my ass. It’s my place.
- I shall listen to more music. Maybe even take lessons.
- I shall actively work on my relationships with friends and family.
- I shall forgive more easily.
And tonight, I shall kiss someone who makes me laugh and wonder why I ever worried.
Here's to a year with lesser carnage and more laughter.
Here's to a year with lesser carnage and more laughter.
3 comments:
Personally, I find that I'm awful at sticking to new years resolutions...Each year I think to do it and then after a couple of weeks I'm back to my regular habits, haha! :) Good luck with your resolutions and have a happy new year!
Wish you a great 2015..hope somebody made you laugh yesterday..btw resolution no 10 comes in handy at all times :)
Hey Moon and Keeley, my NYE went off well. Managed to check off that one thing as I wanted to. Now... on to the rest. Thanks for reading... I'll let you know how the year goes :)
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